My God is a God who provides

Sooo... I'm new to this whole blog thing. I thought I'd give it a try because I figure what I'm trying to do with my life for the next 60 days (well 51 now) might help some other people out. As much as I'd like to blab aimlessly about my life and what's going on in it, I figured I'd make a theme at least until my 60 days are over. What am I doing for 60 days? I am NOT romantically pursuing a relationship.  Most of my life I've desired a relationship with God that was totally on fire with passion and reverence. A relationship that without a doubt puts God as number one and nothing beside that relationship and becoming more like Christ matters more. (Okay, well things like world hunger, the water crisis, homelessness and such are very important, but I figure I can try and tackle those issues once I prepare myself by going through my 60 day challenge) Fast forward from the spark of that desire to now, and you'll find me teetering with having God as my number one. Shocked? Get over it. If we're all completely honest with ourselves, I'm pretty sure we'll all find that there's always something that fights with God as our number one. For me, it's relationships. I've always worried about a certain relationship or wondered when Mr. Right was going to come rather than worrying about my relationship with God and when will I finally be his Ms. Right. So these 60 days are a challenge for me to focus on God and my relationship with him. No distractions with boys allowed. I guarantee I'll whine a little and stumble quite a bit (I'm not very graceful anyway) but I think it will be worth it.

Okay. So, "why do this challenge now?" you may ask. I'm fed up! Obviously, because I'm single, the way I've been doing the whole dating thing hasn't worked out for me too well. I know I'm only 20, but going to a bible college with couples and weddings everywhere isn't exactly the most pleasant place to be a party of one. I complain and complain to my mom all the time about relationships and she usually responds with "take a semester off" or "take ___days off". Two weekends ago it was 60 days. As I sat there in my living room watching yet another hopelessly romantic movie, I finally accepted. In addition to her challenge I decided to start a book she's been trying to get me to read. Maybe you've heard of "I Kissed Dating Goodbye" by Joshua Harris. Yep, most people hated it. But what can it hurt to give it a shot? So far I like it. It's given me a whole new perspective that seems like a no-brainer, but seriously most people never consider. Instead of me looking at men as perspective boyfriends (which I'm so guilty of and if you're a girl you probably are too!), I am going to see them as brothers in Christ and seeking ways to bless them rather than ways to date them. What right do I have to interfere with God's plan for a person by selfishly seeking a relationship or something other than a Godly relationship with them? This goes against our cultures game of "dating". Which is, after all, a game. So, how about I don't "date"? I'm going to seek deeper, meaningful, godly relationships rather than romantic ones. If romance springs out of a friendship, sweet. If not, that stinks, but it will happen in God's timing, not my own and I need to trust that.

Hopefully the whole 2 people that started reading this are still with me at this point.  Okay. So, now that I've further avoided studying for my Matthew test, I have explained my purpose and my new attitude towards men and dating. I hope you found this interesting enough to check up on every now and then. If not, then at least this is a way to document my experience and hopefully I don't feel like a total fool later on!